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I've recently felt a loss of interest in a lot of stuff. I don't seem to have things in order in my life. I can't seem to get it in order, either. I don't know what it is. What's wrong with me? I feel like I'm burned out with everything. The kids are now home for the summer; Elijah's been getting into this "spoiled" attitude. I don't think I spoil him. I give him little spats if he isn't doing the right things. I don't know. I just felt like journaling this down. Our family is trying to get in order and; especially w/ finances. We are trying to move and it just seems like a dream that is miles away. I'm told it's up to me to make this dream a reality. Which it's true. I am the main factor in this subject.

To go to the spiritual side of it all; I can't seem to put my faith in Our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. I see other people around me and think I've been trying very hard; but maybe it's not hard enough. Have I truly put forth my effort in it all? My husband always asks me, when I come to him for advice, have I prayed yet. Right now, it's just not the answer I want to get from him. I can't figure it out. I don't know what to do. I have so many struggles right now to deal with; I'm just overwhelmed by it all and just feel like giving up sometimes. I can't explain it like I want to so no one really can understand me; at least that's how I feel.

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